wandering mind

The bright green grass of not too distant summer is littered with the brown of the fall to come. The crunch of the leaves on the sidewalk releases memories of the years gone by. And suddenly I have this craving for a long afternoon walk with you. But you are no longer here. I miss you. Of all the days, today, I miss you. Wish you were here. Wish we were walking and talking of baking butternut squash with honey glaze and of roasted vegetables with balsamic vinegar. Of the good value red wine we recently discovered. Little things that were taken for granted, as if they will last forever. But they didn't.

I haven't been here back in ages. It is a weird kind of feeling coming back. I sort of had put this life on hold, but the rest of this universe kept humming along. So much has happened since I last wrote here. One of my daughters started college last year. One night her and her roommate sat and read most of my old blogposts. She asked why I stopped writing and told me how much they enjoyed it. Why did I stop writing? I got too caught up in driving kids to all the afterschool activities while commuting two plus hours to work everyday. Then there was dinner and laundry. It was so much easier to hit the like button on facebook posts. Things are slowing down again. Nest is half empty - to be completely empty next year. And I miss the deep conversations on the blogspot platform. Would I be able to connect again?